5月 2013
29件の投稿
let’s see if i can manage two days without posting bye
i dont wanna go
wishing there was a way to cry all of the time
my main blog constantly haunts me i really think it’d be better if i used this one instead (at least for a while)
i’ve gotten used to waking up in this much pain. it hurts less the more i think about how fast i’ll have to get used to this.
“I wish I wrote the way I thought
Obsessively
Incessantly
With maddening...”
– Benedict Smith, I Wish I Wrote The Way I Thought”
ghosts are here
thankful that my roommate understood me. i was really ready to go off on everybody yesterday but she was there to calm me and shut all of them up and i was better
this air is heavy. i feel pinned to my bed
it’s not very sunny today. i’m still waiting to hear back from you and if i never do well at least i saw that coming
weed has been an escape for the past month
because i feel like this helps. no one else can. people who actually do express concern are the least help because i don’t know what to do with those genuine people becasue i’m not used to it
i just want to keep writing because i can feel my anger pooling in my capillaries and its suffocating me and will it ever resist taking me over and making a mockery of me we will see
don’t tell me how to be
that’s probably the worst thing you could do
i’ve lost the ability to process my emotions thoroughly. i haven’t been able to express my thoughts well for months and it’s getting worse. it’s getting worse. worse. worse worse ./ . .. …. what will it take
when i was asked to try and be open about my feelings last night to a friend i’ve known for years i realized, right there and then, that i can barely remember myself/who i am
i am majorly disturbed
